Today I had a great, honest conversation with my mom. Those talks are very special to me. I love when we can laugh about silly things, but I also love her insight and honesty. It's wonderful we can both laugh and cry in a phone conversation that lasts less than an hour.
I feel like my life is in such a state of chaos and confusion right now. There's a lot of uncertainty, and I'm really scared. I'm working on the world's timeline right now, which is unavoidable. Specific events will occur at a designated time whether or not we have accomplished certain things. Before you start to argue with me, let me give you an example. College seniors are probably anxious about finding jobs after their graduation. Their graduation date will occur regardless of whether they have a job or not. That's just the way the world works.
Right now, I'm trying so hard to trust in God's plan for me during this point of uncertainty in my life. My mom's words were "let go and let God'. I really am trying to do this. I'm feel like I'm doing everything that I can to change the chaos and confusion, to bring certainty to what is so uncertain right now. At the same time, I'm trying to trust God. God knows what I want, but He also has a good and perfect will for me. I know that God will reveal that at the perfect time.
With all this rambling, I'm not sure what I was wanting to say when I sat down at my keyboard. I guess my question is how I trust God's plan for me when I'm dealing with a very real timeline?
